Friday, March 09, 2012


It's begun...


I'm slowly starting to feel better. Yesterday I sat down on the couch and tucked my right leg under myself-something I do without thinking on a normal day-and it didn't hurt. The fact that I just did it without thinking is a sign that before I sat down, I was feeling good. Granted, it hurt like hell getting my leg out from under me and then I was limping for an hour or so, BUT, it's a step in the right direction.

The pain in my lower back is also almost gone. The only pain that really remains in is my left leg, which is from the nerve being pressed on for so long. They say that'll take a little while to get better, if it will get I pray every day and every night that it will calm down. I've got big plans for the spring and summer, and of course for the fall, so it'd better hurry up and heal!

Today I was reminded by Trav that it's Friday. It is very easy to lose track of time while you're home alone without anything to do but read and watch TV. I was reminded because he does a weekly post called Five on Friday where he posts 5 different songs. I'm never really good at digging up five songs, so I never play, but today it reminds me that we need to pick a wedding song in the next few months. I have a strong first choice, which is posted below. It's a song that makes me cry every time I hear it, because it reminds me so much of B1. I heard this for the first time the week we met and I felt such a connection to the song. I really hope that B1 agrees that this is perfect too.

What do you think?

Yesterday one of the items I ordered last week arrived. It's an anchor paper stamp for the invitations. I stamped out about 100 of them last night and today I'll affix them with glue. I'm pretty excited that the invitation process is starting. It's still 6 months away, but I know that life will get in the way if I don't start them now and I want them to be perfect. And also, I'm pretty freakin' excited to finally have something productive to do!!

PS. I fully recognize that these last few posts have been all over the place. It's what happens when I haven't talked to anyone in a while. (Other than B1, of course!)

Wednesday, March 07, 2012

Compass Rose

It's been a hard couple of days for me. I'm extremely frustrated with being stuck inside. Today is one week since I had surgery. It's not horrible and I can move around now, but I just can't take laying down all day. Yesterday I did a lot more than I was supposed to, I think, and today I'm paying for it. My back hurts and the strain on my leg is worse. Every time I feel like that, I worry that I messed it up or that it didn't work. In reality, I just won't know until later, when I'm healed. Which stinks.

In other news, I've been doing more wedding stuff. We decided that we're going to actually send out real invitations as opposed to the online invites we originally chose, and I am making them. I've designed all aspects of the invitations including the inserts and want to get started with the pocket folds and the wrapping. The printing and assembling I can do later, but I'd really love to have that project to do over the next week and a half while I'm at home. Trouble is, I can't go buy ribbon. I looked online at several sites and none of them have all 3 ribbons that I need. Yes, I need 3. And I don't want to pay shipping on two orders. So I'm waiting until Saturday when I finally get to ride in a car with a boy. :)

We've also decided on a cake-we just have to choose between two bakeries. I thought it was a slam dunk, but the one we went to already kind of dropped the ball and still hasn't gotten back to me. So I'm not really confident in their service at this point. But the other is also a very well known and respect bakery and we're going to our tasting with them on Saturday. So we'll see. This is a picture of how our cake will look-I made it black and white because the original picture is two tone and ours will only be white. The intricate scroll work will be navy blue. Which will be stunning, I think:

This is what I'm going to be doing with the ribbon. Our pockets are navy blue like this one. The difference is that I'll use coral ribbon instead of the yellow because that's our accent color. Also, instead of just tying the twine all willy nilly like they did, I'm going to tie an actual nautical knot, which goes along with our theme wedding. In fact, instead of a unity candle or sand ceremony, we're actually tying a knot. You know, because we're sailors. :)

The main invite. It will go on the left side of the pocket fold with a coral mat behind it. We keep flip flopping between our names being coral or just having them navy like the rest. For obvious reasons, I've blocked out or erased several specifics on all of these:

These next pieces are the inserts, which will be stacked on the right in the pocket. All people will see at first are the coral titles and the navy borders, all lined up. I've also purchased an anchor punch and will be adding a coral anchor to the bottom of the inside pocket because right now, it's too plain.

I think the celebration events insert is my favorite, mainly because that is the know we will tie during our ceremony. It's two pieces of rope combined to make this beautiful knot.

I'm also a huge fan of the anchor insert. I just love that it's huge for some reason. And leaning against the border.

What do you think?

Sunday, March 04, 2012


It's been a long week. On Wednesday I had back surgery to correct the two discs that ruptured when I fell down the stairs last year. The surgery itself wasn't bad. In fact, it all went really smoothly. They didn't even have me count down to sleep, I just kind of fell and when I woke up, I was in the first recovery bay. I stayed there for about 20 minutes, I think and then they wheeled me into the final recovery room where I felt very neglected, actually. The nurse that helped me at first seemed to disappear and after she gave me crackers and ginger ale, she was gone. Thankfully they let B1 come in and he helped keep me comfortable (they had me in a funny position) and then helped me get dressed. Surgery was at 8:30am and by 3:30pm I was back home in bed heavily drugged.

Since then I've pretty much been horizontal with the exception of 30 minute breaks when I eat. It's grueling. I know it doesn't sound like it, but I have never hated my sofa as much as I do today. The thought of having to lay down for another week at least is really killing me. Yes, we've watched movies and tv and I have books, but it's really boring. I just really want to go outside and feel the air on my skin or hop into the car and drive and explore.

Soon, I know. But staying still isn't my strong suit.

As far as they can tell, the surgery was a success. But when I walk right now, I still feel the pull in my leg which worries me. This could be because they moved the nerve around during surgery and they did mention that I'd feel something, but I'm scared. What if it didn't work? I'm going to be so very depressed if it didn't.

Through this whole ordeal, B1 has been my saving grace. I really can't begin to tell you all how wonderful he is. He's taken on everything that I typically do here in the house and has been at my beck and call every hour of every day. He's helped me up and down, into bed, helped me roll over-even helped me shower because I can't bend down or raise my arms. And throughout it all, he's still smiling, still my sweet boy, cracking jokes and making me smile. I am so lucky.

I guess if you're going to be bored out of your mind, being lucky is a good thing. :)