I've been in (almost) constant pain all week. It's starting to wear on me; I am trying to stay focused and optimistic and to not let it creep into my heart and pull me down, but it's getting harder. As I type this, I'm choking up because I just don't want to feel hurt anymore. I would like to cut off my right shoulder and start over...
I have a physical therapy appointment but it's not until the 17th. I am hoping that this will be the missing link to my recovery and that by summer I won't feel this pain anymore. I want to be able to move without wincing, to sleep without whimpering and to hug the people I love without worrying I'll be squeezed too hard.
This is an old poem I read now and again to remind me to keep going, even when I don't want to. It's not really specific to pain but I thought it'd be a good reminder today...
by Edgar A. Guest
When things go wrong, as they sometimes will,
when the road you're trudging seems all uphill,
when the funds are low and the debts are high,
and you want to smile but you have to sigh,
when care is pressing you down a bit - rest if you must,
but don't you quit.
Success is failure turned inside out - the silver tint of the clouds of doubt,
and when you never can tell how close you are,
it may be near when it seems afar;
so stick to the fight when you're hardest hit - it's when things seem worst,
you must not quit.