How do you get past your past? How do you suppress feelings of insecurity and memories of being betrayed? How do you NOT make the person you love feel horrible when it looks like you don't trust them...when in fact you do?
I'm struggling with this. I need help figuring out how I can let go of past relationships; the ones that hurt the most. Those relationships that ended because he went away and came back with someone else. The one where he tried to mold me into someone else...his ex-girlfriend. Or the one that ended because I wasn't worthy enough of his love. These relationships are so ingrained in me that I don't even actively think about them-I act.
I react. I don't rationalize the fact that B1 is not them. Though I know this. I know in my heart that he is trustworthy, that he loves me very much and that he will come home-to me. And not have someone else on the side. I know these things and yet doubt creeps in when he tells me he's going away or doing something out of the ordinary.
I have to do better. He deserves better-he deserves to feel the trust I have for him, not just to hear the words I say. The question is-how do I do this in the heat of the moment? How do I suppress what naturally bubbles up first?