Friday, January 21, 2011
Who do I want to be? What do I want to do?
I don't know. Is there something wrong with me?
I know I want to be a good person-to be seen as kind, loving, generous and loyal.
I know I want to be trustworthy and dependable.
I know that I want to grow my relationships with family and friends and more specifically, grow closer with B1.
What do I want to learn? Where do I want to go? I feel like my answer is "everything and everywhere" but I don't know how or where to start.
Academic classes don't interest me. I could take them for free yet I find nothing that tugs my interests. I want to do something creative but don't want to feel frivolous.
I want to be more active and to do more adventurous things. I want to cook and plan and serve and laugh. I want to feel comfortable in my own skin.
I feel like I should be DOING something. Do any of you ever feel this way? Do you feel like you're just going through life without making a difference or making a splash? Do you feel lethargic and lazy when you are not actively improving yourself?