Thursday, November 04, 2010

Clearning My Head

I've been having a bad mental week this week. Sometimes it's harder to push the demons back if you know what I mean...

Yesterday was such a beautiful day and I needed to clear my head so I took a walk around campus. I thought about how much easier it is for me to do this now that I'm 40 pounds lighter. I thought about the blue skies and the smell of the autumn air. I thought about the kids on the campus who are learning about themselves and how they'll hopefully make our world a better place.

I took pictures of elephants...

and of the pretty building where God lives on campus...

And then I sat on the roof of the library and looked at the city I love and thought about how lucky I am to be here.

It was a good break. I'm still in a place, but I know it's not 100% my reality now. And hopefully these demons will slowly leave me forever...

Wednesday, November 03, 2010


Sometimes when I am looking at B1 everything around him fades away and all I can see is his face. It's almost like my heart applied the "focal soften" feature on the world so that nothing else gets in the way.

The first time it happened was on our first date. I don't remember what he was talking about, but I remember the smile on his face and the way he looked at me when it happened. Thinking about it's pretty amazing.

"That's top shelf earlobe right there."

I'm no good at beer pong. I started trying to be at first and then realized: It's kind of more fun being the loser. :)

I really hate seeing people being made fun of, even if their message or outlook on life is a little "off" to me. It's still not right to make them feel badly and to humiliate them.

It should be illegal for zombie movies to be longer than one hour in length.

Ketchup and mustard do not belong on a penis.

B1 and I were early to the event Friday in Salem so we went to a pub for a beer. I discovered how very uncomfortable I am when men stare at me. I guess it was my fault because I was wearing a short sparkly costume, but I still didn't like it.

Never go to the bathroom when you have fishnets and your boyfriends underwear on. Especially if you don't want sequins up your butt.

Sometimes you have to drive past your house and pull off the side of the road.

I am pretty sure we have mice in our apartment however we (knock on wood) have never seen them because Bella, our guard kitty, stands in front of the hole they come out of and stares. For hours. Just waiting for them-and I'm pretty sure they know it. Thank you Bella Boo!

It's weird to think of how different my life would be if I had never met B1.

I've looked at myself in pictures over the last few weeks and have started hating what I see. Even though I'm a lot lighter than I was before, I still hate it. I can't even imagine how disgusting I was back then. I mean, I know how I felt, but I thought I looked OK for a fat girl. Who was I kidding?

I think it's hysterical that a fight that occurred 2 years ago is still coming back in certain circles. It's kind of time to get over it. Seriously.

Tuesday, November 02, 2010

Toosdae ?'s

I've been severely slacking on the blogging front these days. I have to admit that I haven't been very inspired. And because I haven't been a very good blogging friend (visiting and commenting) participation in Toosdae ?'s has been low....sorry about all of that! For those of you who still would like to play along, here are this week's questions:

1. Did you vote today? If not, why?

2. What is one of the major voting topics in your area? (No need to tell me how you feel or how you voted on the issue.)

3. What did you have for lunch today?

My answers:

1. Not yet-but I am going on my lunch break. It's very convenient that I live just up the street from where I work and therefore my voting location is also close.

2. One of the topics we're voting on today is whether or not to reduce sales tax.

3. I am having a tomato and basil veggie burger on toast and a salad. I wish I was having a burger and fries.

Monday, November 01, 2010

Frighteningly Tired

What a weekend! I have not been this busy and this "in demand" during Halloween since...well, I don't think ever! It was a fun time and now, I am exhausted. I have a feeling that this week, I truly will be working for the weekend!

Friday started with a trip to Salem, MA. We went to see 2 bands play and then watched a really horrible zombie movie. It was fun to be out and the bands were pretty good but the movie made me angry it was so bad (and long!). At the end of the night I thanked B1 for a 95% fun night. :)

Saturday was perhaps my favorite day. It started out as a lazy Saturday. Since we didn't get home until about 2am on Saturday morning, we slept in late. The bed was so warm and snuggly-it was the perfect sleeping in bed scenario. We then got up and stayed in our PJ's and watched TV under a warm comforter while sipping coffee.


Time was ticking, however, and we needed to get our butts moving. I had to make these:

They're peanut butter cream cheese brownies. I made them for B1's football team. They were pretty good, but they were made with a box mix (because they were 10 for $10!) and I like mine better. But they boys didn't seem to mind after the game when they were eating them. :)

We also had to do this:

B1 is so good at drawing and sketching things. I found a picture online and showed it to him and he drew it pretty much exactly how I wanted it. AND he even added scary eyebrows like I wanted. He's so good.

After dinner (Homemade Chicken Makhani) I went upstairs to do this:

So that I could look like this:

Because we were invited to a Halloween party. Here is B1 and I all dressed up:

I took my feather headband off almost immediately. I liked it a lot better without it. There was another flapper there and I have to say I pretty much blew her out of the water. :) She was kinda lame. I kept leaving black feathers all around the house though and I felt terrible about it. After a few rounds of beer pong however, I cared a little bit less...

We're freakin' cute.

Sunday morning...B1 plays in a flag football league and Sunday was the last game of the regular season. Here are a few pictures of my hot man roughing up some boys:

The last thing B1 and I had to do this weekend was to go trick or treating with his God-daughter Maggie. We didn't want to dress up again (we did both Friday and Saturday nights) so he wore his "monkey suit" and I wore his football jersey. Here we are with Mags:

We had dinner with B1's aunt and cousins and then walked around the neighborhood a few times with the kiddos before heading back home to crash. B1 roasted our pumpkin seeds and we watched a movie in the dark (so we could appreciate our cool pumpkin, of course!) and then headed to bed.

It was quite a was yours?