Friday, August 27, 2010


B1 discovered a hole in my favorite sweater this morning. Nothing more on that, just makes me wish it weren't there. Though-when I wear my hair down, it's hard to see...

I have lots of things going on in my head today. Lots of projects and ideas going on up there. This weekend we're finally painting the entrance and hallway wall as well as the office. That will leave very little painting left to be done! Just adding those two small spaces to the done list will make me breathe a little easier. We chose:

The larger swatch is called "Baritone" and it's a deep purple. It'll be an accent wall between the kitchen and the office. We actually decided to do a 2nd wall that color too, just because of the layout of the space. The office is going to be that tan color. I really wanted it to be a darker brown, but the office is very small and it just wouldn't look right, so instead I'll use the accents that I already had in the old place (brown curtains, etc). I'm really excited about it.

I also have to paint a piece of furniture I bought for the bathroom. I primed it a few weeks ago but never got around to painting it. Part of the reason is because I didn't know what I wanted to do. I think I've decided that it'll be some shade of purple to go with our shower curtain. Lately I'm into funky furniture that no one else would have. I don't know why but hopefully this will come out great.

I'm also making my sisters wedding veil. It's coming along a lot more slowly than I thought it would. Beading the veil by hand is proving to be very difficult. I hope she likes it. I'm going to need a whole bunch more beads too...

Tomorrow after painting B1 and I are going on a date. We're not sure what we want to do yet or where we want to go, but B1 suggested we "go north". I don't know what that means, but truthfully, I'd go anywhere with that man, so I'm good with wherever we land.

Sunday is supposed to be really nice here. I'm going to go to the beach. I have to squeeze in as much beach time as I can until the weather starts turning gloriously fall-like (omgicantwait!). Sunday seems like a good time to do that.

So overall, my head is full of fun stuff and I'm really looking forward to getting it all done. I have the apartment to myself tonight as B1 is sleeping on his boat. I'm going to dinner with a good friend of mine and then perhaps I'll go home to work on the cabinet. Or the veil. Or maybe I'll just stay out and have some more drinks and not worry about any of it!

Have a great weekend everyone!

Thursday, August 26, 2010

The Benefit of Insomnia

5 months ago I...

...didn't remember what it was like to be wanted.

...started accepting a life without a partner.

...yearned to share my laughter.

...missed kissing.

...was lonely.

5 months ago I...

...wondered if my prayers would ever be answered.

...was OK, but felt something was missing.

...wrote a "what I want in a partner" list.

...but essentially gave up looking.

...called out of work sick.

.5 months ago I...

...met the man of my dreams.

I'm still amazed.  Daily.

Wednesday, August 25, 2010


Sometimes you have to read between the lines.

If you are on a program to lose weight and you complain about it constantly, talk about how much "other" stuff you ate during the week or what you neglected to eat you can't very well expect me to be sympathetic when you did not lose weight.  Especially when I did the same program and successfully lost my first 20 #'s that way.

I'm doing Jenny again for another round.  With the move and job stuff I let myself get off track in terms of being mindful and planning.  Luckily I haven't gained any weight back but I haven't lost any either and that's not cool.  So I'm kicking it off again and hoping that when this round is done other things will be less hectic and I can concentrate and create routine again.

It's hard for people to understand how horrible it feels to have someone in your life who makes you sad and frustrated-especially when that person is supposed to be someone you're supposed to cherish.

Sometimes you just need 2 glasses of wine with dinner.  I can't help it if it always seems to be on a Tuesday.

I'm worried about some things at work and I shouldn't be.  This is not my life.  My life is at home with B1 and with my family and friends.  I need to remember to let go of my ego and to just go with the flow.

There's a certain project I'm working on at work which confuses the faculty.  I can see why but I can't really say that to my boss.  Instead, I'm trying to make it as easy as possible for them to get it, but they just can't.  Which makes me are they teaching?

I need new clothes.  But now that I'm doing Jenny, I can't buy any because I know they won't fit again soon.  Not a horrible problem to have, but's kind of annoying not having things that fit and make you feel good.

Taking a 5 hour train ride for baseball is not worth it.  Especially when it's for the Yankees.  (My entire family are Yankees fans.  I don't know what's wrong with them.)

When the arms of you lover become home, life is...wonderful, perfect, thrilling, amazing, comfortable, astounding...and any other word that means "awesome".

Tuesday, August 24, 2010

Toosdae ?'s

1. What are you grateful for today?

2. Have you ever run away from home? If so, for how long? Do you remember why you left?

3. If you could only visit one section of a bookstore for the rest of your life, which section would you choose?

My answers...

1. I am grateful for many, many things...for B1, for my job, my family and friends...and for cheese.

2. Yes, I have. In the traditional "I hate you so I'm running away" sense and the less obvious "I'm moving across the country for an adventure" sense. The traditional running away only lasted a couple of hours at most and I came back because I was little and tired and hungry and I most likely missed playing my flute. Yes...I was a dork. The other way took me 5 years to come home and well, I've lived in Boston now for almost 3 years. I'm not sure I'll go back "home" again...this place feels pretty good.

3. This is a tough one. Is there a section that is dedicated to books written in the voice of children? Because if there was, that's the one I would want to stay in. But because I know that sounds creepy and also because that section doesn't exist, I'd have to choose fiction...lots of places to go in those books!