Friday, March 05, 2010

Low Fat

There's a very yummy cafe in the square closest to the university where my office mates and I go for breakfast every now and then.  It's a cute little locally owned spot that is very stereotypical of the area and I love it.  The food there is amazing.  They have such wonderfully fattening, delicious waffles and pancakes with caramelized banana's and oh so many other options, it really blows your mind.  This morning, we had breakfast.  I had to go in with the knowledge of what I was going to eat before I even stepped into the place.  I've done so well over the last week and I don't want to spoil it if I can help it.  I planned out that for breakfast I would have an egg and Canadian bacon sandwich on a whole wheat English muffin with a side of fruit.

When the sandwich was delivered to me, I noticed that there were 3 slices of Canadian bacon on it!  No one needs that many slices and so I took 2 of them off.  There was also a slice of cheese on the sandwich and instead of scraping it off, I decided to eat it and omit the cheese snack that I was slated to eat today anyway.  The fruit plate was amazing.  A whole banana cut up, mango, papaya (which was gross), a piece of pineapple, lots of strawberries and black berries as well.  I had to eat 2 fruits with breakfast and I exceeded that easily.  I'm really proud of the choices I made and proud that I did not give into pressure to cheat when there was no reason to.  I didn't feel deprived at all either.  And I know that when I step on the scale tomorrow morning, I won't be disappointed.


Tonight I am going out with a friend to a pub in Cambridge.  I have a plan for that too-they have Sam Lite and it's only 124 calories.  While I would really like a glass of wine, it's more expensive (by $5!) and also more calories.  I really like beer anyway, so it's no sacrifice to me.  We're driving instead of taking public transportation, so having only one beer is the smart choice anyway.  And, if I choose to have a 2nd one, I won't be breaking my diet too badly as I'm planning on not having my late night snack that's built in. 

I am heading to the gym after work tonight (before I go out) and then I'm meeting with a trainer in the morning before I head down to CT for the weekend.  My parents have an elliptical (in the room I sleep in, actually) so I won't be missing out on gym time either.

I'm determined this time.  This is going to work.

Have a great Friday everyone.  Sorry to be posting so late.  I was...let's say...distracted last night.  Perhaps you'll get the story on that in a few days.

Thursday, March 04, 2010

Dress Me Up, Buttercup

I shouldn't be spending money. And for the most part, I am not. I can justify the baseball tickets because they are a gift (and I also make sacrifices each year to attend at least 2 games) but other expenses right now are just not in the cards. I am, however. losing weight. I got for a 2nd "official" weigh in on Monday, but my home scale shows a total of 5 pounds lost so far (in exactly 1 week). I fully expect to lose more.

Most of the pants I have now were already a tiny bit too big on me. I suspect that within a couple of weeks they'll be completely in the "too big" category. Work pants I can get altered but jeans, not so much. Old Navy is one of my favorite places to buy clothes. I have to buy them online though, because they discontinued their plus size line IN stores. Usually I'd say screw you and not buy clothing from them (why are fat people so embarrassing to you ON?), but they are the only place I can get jeans that fit me well and actually look good on. They are also one of the only places that sell plus size clothing that does not look frumpy or old. In any case, I received an email with a very good promotional code and so today I bought myself an outfit. I got a pair of dark wash jean for $19 (Usually $32):

a canary yellow cardigan (which I've literally wanted for 2 years) for $20:

and a gray shirt for $15 (which can be worn to work or casually with the jeans):

The clothes are all one size smaller than I am currently wearing.

Some might say it's dicey, ordering clothing that I know wouldn't fit me today if I tried them on (well, the cardigan probably would) but I am confident that I'll get there soon. And it's not like I ordered them in crazy small sizes that I won't see for at least 8 months. So I am excited to be getting a cute new outfit that I can dress up or down depending on what I'm doing (Dates? No problem! Work? Wear dress pants instead!) and also providing myself with a small reward when I get there. I honestly think I'm only another 5 pounds away from the jeans...but only time will tell!

And now, my shopping is done. (At least until I need to go down another size!)

Father's Day

Yesterday I waited in a virtual waiting room for 2 hours. I had the opportunity to buy Red Sox/Yankee tickets and I really, really wanted to get a pair. The great thing about being a part of this is that the tickets are regular price-not the illegally inflated price that you'll find on websites selling the same tickets. I mentioned yesterday that I wanted to buy a set of tickets for my father and I as an early Father's Day present. My first choice game did not have 2 seats together and I wasn't willing to wait it out to see if they got released. I checked my 2nd choice and got tickets right away! They are not the kind of seats my dad buys us, but I think he's pretty excited to come to Boston for the day and then to the game that night. I'm pretty psyched as well.

It's still amazes me how far my father and I have come. There was a time when I wouldn't be in the same room as him, let alone inviting him up to my place for a short weekend. Anyway, I'm excited...

I had a bad day at work yesterday. I'm not sure I'm going to talk about it, but I was really ready to cry and ready to find a different job. I still love it there and I don't want to leave-there is just one thing in particular that really bothers me and I don't know how to handle it. I need advice-or I need someone to fix it...but that's all I am going to say now.

Wednesday, March 03, 2010


I forgot how horrible the roads in Springfield are. My poor little car.

I hate when people are nervous to cook for me. When I say that I love hot dogs, that usually makes them feel a little better though.

It's nice to hear someone say they want to learn to cook from me.

Boss's should NOT lean over your shoulder. Especially when it's been made clear that it makes someone uncomfortable.

It's horrifying when you get a bill in the mail from your dentist for $400 when you thought it was supposed to be covered. It's fantastic, however, when you call the insurance company to complain and they realize they made a mistake and your $400 balance disappears.

This means I have some cushion money from my taxes. It's not really cushion money, it's just hopefully the money I need to catch up and stop being in the red every month.

I am only buying myself one thing with tax money-Red Sox tickets. If I can get them. I might be able to buy some special tickets today and if I get them, I'll use them as a father's day present. It'll be a month early, but I think he'll enjoy it none the less. So I kill 2 birds with 1 stone: I get to do one of my favorite things in the world (go see a baseball game at Fenway) and spend time with my dad watching it live. (And having ME pay for it for once!)

I have very little to do as it is right now. Don't do my job for me, thankyouverymuch.

LOST lunch again today...does anyone else feel like you're being lied to? Like when they say it's time for answers and then you don't really get anything new? Or at least anything significantly new?

I'm off to CT again this weekend, but this time hopefully it'll be fun. It might also be traumatizing because we're trying on bridesmaids dresses, but at least I know I'll be skinnier when I actually have to wear it in public!

I am taking Bella's stitches out tomorrow. Myself. My cousin said I can do it and it's easy but I'm a little nervous. I don't want to hurt her little belly. (She's pulling on them herself though-so it's time to take them out.)

Tuesday, March 02, 2010

Toosdae ?'s

Good morning everyone! I would just like to say that of all the places one could live, New England is truly tops. I know that there are some people out there who hate the snow (to which I say, MOVE!) and the back and forth weather...but the changing of seasons is just a marvelous thing to experience. Every year when spring starts to creep into the air I feel so alive. The earth is thawing, birds are's muddy and chilly and oh so wonderful! Today, if you couldn't tell, is a good day.

Yesterday was my first weigh in with Jenny. I lost 3.2 pounds! I suspect that it's a little more because I literally just ate lunch right before I left for the appointment. I feel really good about this right now. Though I have not been able to get out of the house to go to the gym before work, I'm committing to getting there after I cook tonight and Thursday night and then Saturday I have an appointment with the trainer. I'm also opting to eat the food I cook with The Family instead of eating Jenny's food those 3 nights. I think this is more realistic than eating all of their food anyway, and closer to what my life will be like after the program. I cook them good, healthy food for the most part and I always have correct portions with them. So I don't think that this will hinder my results, but we'll see.

To anyone who has thought about going on Jenny Craig, I'd like to warn that it is not inexpensive. I've found ways to get around paying for some of their products and therefore reducing the cost. First, I buy my own salad dressing. They will try to sell you individual little packets of their dressing and honestly, it is really convenient and not as messy to use theirs. But they charge over a dollar for each one, and you eat salad EVERYDAY. That's $7 for about 1/2 C. of dressing which is ridiculous. They also have these things called "Everyday Bars". They are high protein snack bars that you eat as a snack with fruit between breakfast and lunch. They are $10! The only upside to their version is that they come in a box of 7 while most snack bars in stores come in 4-6. I went to the store and compared calories, carbs and fat and found a good substitute in a South Beach brand...they were on sale for less than $2 for 6 bars and regularly sell for just over $2.50. If you want to cut out even more, shop for your own cereal, too. Especially these days, there are tons of low fat, low carb, high fiber...anything, really, cereals and you can easily save money by buying and portioning out your own stuff. The only thing with that is you don't eat cereal everyday for breakfast. In fact, I've only had cereal twice so far. But I've kept cereal in the freezer to extend the life of it (just like I do with chips of any sort) and that is what I would do if I chose to buy my own cereal. While it's not a huge savings, you'll appreciate even the few bucks you save considering you also have to buy milk, yogurt, cottage cheese, veggies, salad, and fruit. Yes, it's an expensive endeavor. But I suspect having a heart attack would also be expensive and emotional and possibly even deadly, so it's a price I'm willing to pay right now. (And yes, the food is really good-the commercials don't lie. Unlike NutraSystem, which my sister has done in the past and has had to choke down the food because it's so disgusting.)

And now that I've exhausted you all with information you probably don't care about-here are this week's questions!

1. Did you dream last night? If so, can you share it with us-at least a little bit?

2. How do you get your news?

3. Do you know how to play chess? If so, do you like it? If not, do you want to learn?

My answers...

1. Yes, I had dreams last night and none of them were haunting! The part I remember is that my friend Danny was driving (which I've never seen him do in real life) us somewhere and while at the wheel, he took out a can of beer, shook it-looked at me and said, "You're gonna love this!" and opened it all over me and the car. He then took out a lime and squeezed it into the remaining beer in the can and started drinking it. I've never seen Danny drink beer, either, come to think of it...though drinking IS something we've done together.

2. I get most of my news online but I also listen to NPR on the way to work and on weekends when I'm driving. I hardly ever watch news on TV. It's too depressing and well, boring.

3. I used to know how to play chess because my 3rd grade teacher taught us. I hated it which is why I haven't really played it since. I find it to be boring, even though there is strategy involved. It's just not my thing.

Monday, March 01, 2010

Groucho Mags

I'm in a grouchy mood today. There's no particular reason other than it's Monday, really. I could use a smile or a hug...something to pick me up. Flowers would be fun too. (You know you area chef when instead of "flowers" you type "flours" every time.) The only saving grace is that tonight I am going over to my friend Josh's house for dinner with his partner and then we're having a Bachelor party. It should be pretty fun. I'm making lemon pudding cakes. They only have 200 calories per serving. I'm told we'll have pork for dinner. Yay for fun friends!

I wonder if this little crab will show up

As you know, yesterday I had to drive to Springfield to pick up my kitty. For some reason, my GPS wanted to drive me past every spot I ever went with Greg. I even passed WNEC for some odd reason. The GPS said, "Fuck you Maggie's heart-Fuck you!" and it drove me past places I would have just assumed forgotten. There was no real reason why I was taken on this route.

Also, GPS needs an "avoid ghetto" option. Yes, I can take the shortest route or the fastest route...but the safest route should also be an option. I'm just glad it was during the day. Some of these places I know about because of Jamie and I can guarantee that bad people live in those areas. At least I would have been able to find a hospital quickly if I had gotten GPS knows these things.

Sunday, February 28, 2010

Bella's Back!!

Bella came home today. She was away from me for exactly one week. My cousin registered her in CT when she was born, and for $50 I could have her first vaccines, spaying and next set of vaccines-but she had to go back to CT. Her surgery was on Monday of last week-the original plan was that I would drive back down to CT to get her on Tuesday after work. Unfortunately, the weather people kept claiming that there would be snow and sleet either here or in CT the entire week. Today my cousin was attending a horse auction in Western MA so we decided to meet in Springfield. Let me just say, it was GOOD to see my Bella's sweet face. She talked to me the entire ride home but I was worried that she'd be distant and hissy for a few days while she settled back in. Luckily, it was quite the opposite. Immediately she rubbed up against me and purred. She ran from room to room like a kid in a candy store, looking at her home like she missed it more than anything. When I walked into another room, she'd call for me and when I answered her, she'd run over and hop into my lap. It's clear she really missed me and I'm so happy that she doesn't hate me for shipping her off for a week.

You might remember that I was planning on going to meet with my personal trainer for the first time this afternoon. After the early morning ride to get Bella and seeing how clingy she was, I decided to postpone the meeting. I'm glad, because she really did spend most of the day on my lap and when I took a nap, she layed on my tummy and slept.

I'm doing really well so far on the diet. I did cheat a little bit today-I had a couple of pieces of cheese and a teaspoon of peanut butter. I know it's not a huge cheat, but I'm disappointed because I wasn't starving when I ate them-I was bored. I was watching TV and felt like I wanted a snack and instead of being able to say no, I ate it. I have to work on this.

Tomorrow I am planning on trying to get up early to go to the gym before work. I've never really been good at doing this. I'm not a morning person, but I'm determined to make this work and because I'm going to a friends house after work tomorrow, I won't be able to go in the evening. So I'll get up, work out and come home to get ready for the day. Hopefully, I'll be able to drag my butt out of bed to get there in time.

And, with that...I'm off to bed.