I am having a really tough week. I've had several minor health issues surrounding one specific area over the last 6 months and it's getting very tiring. Some, like this last issue, is a direct result of the medicine I had to take for another issue I had two weeks ago. I am VERY sick of having these issues and really don't know what I'll do if something else happens this year.
In addition to being frustrated by said health issues (and the fact that I'm getting ANOTHER cold) I am very frustrated about work. I've mentioned to you before that I really like my new boss and am excited about some of the things that she is allowing me to do. I've learned so much in these past 2 months since her arrival than I have the entire year of being here. It's great, and people are starting to see what I can do. But then there is my coworker-I've mentioned her here before. She's sort of a know it all and always has to have her hand in everything-even things that don't have to do with her. She has to control everything and I hate that. What's worse is that everyone here goes to her for answers because she has been here for ages.
Now, why does this bother me? Well, I guess one reason is that I like to feel needed. And I like to be known as someone who can do a great job and when someone else is trying to take that away because they are a control freak, it kind of pisses me off. And also, I hate being bored. I finally feel like I'm making progress and that I'm busy at work. And she tries to "take things off of my plate" all of the time.
WTF. NO! You DON'T need to take anything. I got it. I'm good. As B1 would say, "I can do it myself!"
Yesterday this person came to a meeting with me. She'll be attending regularly as well-which I'm still confused about why-but whatever. I sit in the corner of the room-not at the table-to take notes on the laptop. I do interact with the committee now and then and up until yesterday it didn't bother me. Until she came in. And sat at the table with everyone. It kind of sucked. AND after the meeting instead of giving something to me one of the deans handed it to her. What he handed her was something he should have given me. This sort of thing happens all of the time and I'm pretty sick of it.
I know it's just a job. I know that I should just come in, do the best I can and let everything else go away. But I can't. It is very frustrating and demeaning to have this happen. It's like I'm good enough until she comes in, and then all of a sudden I'm not. It doesn't make me feel good. And it's not how I want to work.
I have to figure it out.