Wednesday, September 02, 2009


Just because there is a past it doesn't mean there is a future.

Pizza catastrophes are hysterical after someone declares that THEY have not yet had one.

My best Boston friend just told me this weekend that she is indeed going to move to OH with her husband. She'll still work here so I'll still get to see her, but this means no more fun time on weekends.

Some people can talk about cupcakes 'til the cows come home.

Boys are stupid. Throw rocks at them.

St. Anthony is the patron saint of lost things. I had lots to pray to him about at the feast this weekend.

Overheard this weekend: "I'm feeling really friendly right now, and I hate it."

Deception. It sucks.

If you are going to try to scam me for money by saying that you are from the Cape and your wallet got stolen along with your debit card and that you need $25 to get back on the bus...don't be carrying a purse. Dumb ass.

Also-there are hundreds of police around the city on a Friday night when there is a festival just a block up. TALK TO ONE OF THEM!

Getting hit by a car when it's moving slowly is pretty scary. I can only imagine what it's like when the driver is going real fast.

People aren't as apologetic as they should be when they hit someone with their car.

To the lady who lets her little girl run around and SCREAM in the parking lot behind my apartment-stop her or someone is probably going to punch you.

Moving day lasted well into the night. When I got home from cooking, trucks were still double parked, parking spots were taken up by garbage and people were EVERYWHERE. I can't wait until all of the parents leave so I can have my neighborhood back.

Hearing a 2 year old ask in a scared voice, "What if my teachers don't like me?" is heartbreaking.

Dishes can look more intimidating when there is a huge bowl in the sink. They take up a lot of room and make things seem worse than they are.

I wish there was a big bowl in my life that I could clear away and sigh with relief when it was gone.

I would think that librarians would be more discreet than they are in my library. Sometimes people don't want the name of the book they are looking for to be belted out for everyone to hear and yet, they always seem to do it.

If you don't know, but want or need to know, you need to find out. Sometimes that is hard to do.

Tuesday, September 01, 2009

Moving Day

This is what it's like to live in a college town on the first day of September. It doesn't help that BC and BU are on either side...if you click the photos to enlarge them, you'll see just how many moving trucks there are around today...

I literally could not walk two blocks without seeing at least 5 trucks in sight-most of the time it was much more. The thing I hate most is that they leave all of their trash on the sidewalks and the neighborhood looks like crap for a while.

At least no undergrads are allowed in my building.

Toosdae ?'s

I would like to thank all of my wonderful friends who have called & emailed and those of you who left words of encouragement in the comments section. I need to specifically give a huge thank you to 3 specific people: Greg of We're Taking Bets That..., Lois of Lowndown From Lois, and Lisa of Live and Learn. The three of these people went out of their way to make yesterday better for me & without them, my Monday would have been dark and dismal. Thank you... know how YOU can make me smile? You guessed it-answer this weeks Toosdae ?'s. :) Have a fantabulous Toosdae.

1. It's a matter of national security that you have to change the type of liquid in the ocean to something other than water. What do you replace it with?

2. If you had a chance to press a button that would 100% without a doubt tell you if there is or is not a God would you push it?

3. What was the last thing that you drank from? Was there a message/picture/saying on it?

1. I would use ginger ale. It's light, semi-clear and bubbly so there would still be white caps. And also, it's delicious and refreshing.

2. No. It would kind of defeat the purpose of the word faith. And while I sometimes wonder why I am being tested or given certain circumstances, I believe. The end.

3. I drank water (from my tap) that I put in an old 59 oz. Minute Maid Pomegranate Lemonade bottle. It tells me that the juice was an excellent source of antioxidants and that it contains vitamins C and E.

Monday, August 31, 2009

My Morning Is Near

If I can endure for this minute
Whatever is happening to me,
No matter how heavy my heart is
Or how dark the moment may be

If I can remain calm and quiet
With all the world crashing about me,
Secure in the knowledge God loves me
When everyone else seems to doubt me

If I can but keep on believing
What I know in my heart to be true,
That darkness will fade with the morning
And that this will pass away, too.

Then nothing in life can defeat me
For as long as this knowledge remains
I can suffer whatever is happening
For I know God will break all of the chains

That are binding me tight in the darkness
And trying to fill me with fear
For there is no night without dawning
And I know that my morning is near.

- Helen Steiner Rice

Reminders 2 Myself...

There are two primary choices in life:
to accept conditions as they exist, or accept the responsibility for changing them.

Don't waste your life in doubts and fears: spend yourself on the work before you, well assured that the right performance of this hour's duties will be the best preparation for the hours or ages that follow it.
Ralph Waldo Emerson

“When we seek to discover the best in others, we somehow bring out the best in ourselves.”
William A Ward

If you believe in yourself and have the courage, the determination, the dedication, the competitive drive and if you are willing to sacrifice the little things in life and pay the price for the things that are worthwhile, it can be done.
Vince Lombardi

You're alive. Do something.
The directive in life, the moral imperative was so uncomplicated. It could be expressed in single words, not complete sentences. It sounded like this: Look. Listen. Choose. Act.
Barbara Hall

"The only thing we can do is play on the one string we have,
and that is our attitude… I am convinced that life is 10% what happens to me
and 90% how I react to it."
Charles Swindoll

I had to pick myself up and get on with it, do it all over again, only even better this time.
Sam Walton

Sunday, August 30, 2009

I Promise, I'm Trying...

Just when I thought that I could make it...the state lied to me. I was told that my unemployment was automatically extended and that I didn't need to do anything else. However, when I filed this morning, I was only give a fraction of my weekly pay-which happens when you're time is up.

With this payment and my chef money I would have had $10 left in the bank after paying rent on Friday. Now I will not have enough to pay it let alone buy food, pay for my car and also-my prescriptions. I honestly have no idea what I am going to do.

I've applied to all of the big box stores around, the majority of the jobs on craigslist as well as all of the full time jobs I qualify for. I'm really at a loss right now. I'm trying to stay positive and I'm trying to stay focused and have faith, but I can tell you that I'm having a really, really hard time. I am so scared that I will have to move back home and that I'll be back to where I was before coming here. I'm afraid that I won't have money to pay for the basics and that I'll have to ask my father who is already helping out both of my sisters. I am afraid that I am alienating the people I care about the most because I am always a downer.

I feel very alone and very scared. And there's really no other way to describe it.

I'm trying...I promise I am. I just think that I've hit the wall. Not much more I can do...

Update: Monday morning...called unemployment to see what's up and they won't take my call until tomorrow! So I go another day without knowing if that was my last check from them or not.