I woke up to an email from my father saying that while in NY my mom talked to an uncle of mine who told her that cafes are failing. Last night when my father told her that we were going ahead with the sale my mom said that she is now against loaning me the money. Therefore, I have no cafe and nothing good going on in my life right now. It was what was keeping me sane, keeping my life together. Apparently next year will be the year that we can try, he said.
I won't hold my breath.
After those errands I get to play with Lois! I'm delivering her the 5 lemon cakes that she's giving away on her blog. I am super excited to see her pretty face today-she's got a way about her that just makes people smile. It'll be a good day.
Today I am most grateful for friends who have been there for me over the last couple of days. I've needed to be talked down from a couple of ledges (symbolic ones-not real ones!) and I'm not sure I could be this strong without them. I am still missing a very large part of my heart and am missing a dear friend, but I'm hoping that once the healing is done our paths will cross again and we can be friends once more.
Thank you to everyone who has made me feel so loved over these last few days...