Thursday, December 31, 2009
**Updated**After... (Still have white trim to do tomorrow.)
Come back later for the "after". Happy New Year's Eve everyone!
Wednesday, December 30, 2009
Shalom does not mean penis
It's hysterical to watch someone answer a phone call that doesn't exist and then get frustrated when she can't hear it.
Ginger peach candles smell yummy. They smell even yummier when they are on clearance.
I might have a date at IKEA on new years day. I'm not sure how I feel about it, but at least it's a big store so if he sucks I can just "get lost".
My desk is put together, curtains are up and I used a gift card to buy a pretty silver lamp with a pink lamp shade. Now all I have to do is unpack the boxes and put up pictures and my office will be done! (Pictures will follow, of course.)
I don't let Bella in my room at night but when I take naps I keep the door open so she can come in if she wants. She always does and she always curls up in the nook of my tummy (I sleep on my side) and stays with me the entire time. So sweet...
They made me stay home from work yesterday because it is so slow. I didn't think I needed to, but I used the day to rest and nap. Turns out, I needed it!
The other night I heard someone honking their horn out front. They kept holding it down for what seemed like minutes. When I looked out the window, a pickup truck was blocking a car in their driveway purposely. Someone jumped out and ran into the house and then the truck sped away. It was weird. I was afraid that I'd witness a fight or worse...luckily I didn't.
I'm feeling crafty. I need black contact paper. Hopefully I'll be able to show you by the end of the new years break.
2010 is going to be my year.
Tuesday, December 29, 2009
I'm not posting Toosdae ?'s today because last week there was little activity due to the holiday. I'm assuming it would be the same today so maybe next week they will start up again.
I've decided that I am in fact going to paint my living room. It's too bad that the landlord paid to have this place painted and that he chose such an ugly color. Everything looks washed out and too bland. I suppose some people would like it and be able to live with it but I need a little pizazz. But the color I chose isn't very...pizazz-ish. It's a grayish blue color. My furniture is a grayish greenish brownish color (if that makes sense) and I have blue accents in the room. It'll work well with the red room which opens up to the living room too. My 2nd choice is a grayish green, but I think my furniture would blend into it too much. I'll be painting over the New Year break...after that, I'm doing painting. My bedroom and the office will remain this ugly color but b/c the rooms are small, they look OK. The hallway will also remain as is. I might not even paint the trim in there. We'll see.
I'm excited to think it's almost done. It's been a lot of work and I'm ready to be able to sit back and just enjoy the space. My family is visiting in a couple of weeks for the first time and I'd like everything to be done by then. Having another deadline will do me good.
I'm thinking of calling an electrician to come in to put an outlet in the bathroom and to wire the bedroom and kitchen with switches. I know it's an apartment and I shouldn't invest any money in the place, but I'm planning on living here for at least a couple of years and I feel like it will make me happier to be able to turn lights on and blow dry my hair in the bathroom without a huge cord coming from my bedroom. Does that make sense? I don't know. I wish I knew an electrician who could do it for me.
Do you have any plans for New Year's Eve?
Sunday, December 27, 2009
Unfortunately I managed to get sick and so the last 2 days have been spent in a daze. I've been in and out of naps and at one point I had a fever but it's gone now. Thankfully it's a short week and I don't have to cook, so I'll be on the mend in no time. For now, this is all I can post-even this has hurt my head...
Here is an updated picture of my first cousins. This year there is an addition-my sister's fiance on the right, in white.
Thursday, December 24, 2009
Every year for my entire life (with the exception of when I lived in Florida) I have spent Christmas Eve in New York at my Nana's house. We all pile into her small cape and eat and laugh and just enjoy ourselves. It's wonderful. But since we are not home on Christmas day, we open our gifts from each other before we drive to NY. We sit in a large circle around the living room-always in the same spots-and open one gift at a time, taking turns who opens next. It sounds simple, but it is so fun and we always have such a good time doing it.
Then we drive to NY and spend the best night with family. My NY family is so wonderful. They are super loud and funny and it's really hard not to have fun around them. Every year my Nana acquires little throw away stupid gifts and tonight she'll pass out tickets and call out numbers. When yours is picked, you get the prize! So stupid, yet so hysterical because the gifts, most often, are nothing you'd ever want. Hysterical, I tell you.
Last year I had just gotten laid off. I was worried about how I was going to pay bills, I felt like a loser and overall, I was just really depressed. It was hard for me to be at my Nana's because I knew I should be smiling and laughing but I just couldn't. So this year is even better for me, because I'm in a mostly good place and have a lot to be thankful for. It's going to rock. :)
Tomorrow we'll go to my Aunt Carol's annual brunch and then make our way home in the afternoon. We usually have a tradition of going to a Japanese Restaurant for dinner but I'm not sure we're doing that this year. Probably, but no one has said anything yet.
Anyway, I truly hope that each and every one of you who celebrates Christmas has a wonderful Eve and day tomorrow. I might pop in to post some pictures, but I'm just going to try my best to enjoy the time with family...Merry Christmas!
Wednesday, December 23, 2009
Stories about a friend thinking his seat was wet with drool cause me to laugh hysterically.
Catching up with said friend makes my heart happy.
There are lots of very weird people in local Irish Bars in Boston.
Toilet seats sometimes fall off. When you are on them.
I told the story out loud today. It felt good and bad at the same time. I'm happy I wasn't told that everything happens for a reason. It may be true, but I'm so sick of hearing it. There should never be a reason why someone you trust rips your heart out and stomps on it without remorse.
I won't get a Merry Christmas call or an after Christmas visitor this year. I'm so ready to be done being sad about this.
Bella is a freak. She seems to get wicked hyper around 10pm just when I'm trying to relax.
I'm starting to see the side of my boss that everyone else told me about. He's still very nice to me however.
Some people are just miserable fools who like to bring other people down. It sucks when these people are the bosses. (Not mine this time. But she influenced him.)
I apparently know more Christmas carol lyrics than I thought.
Yesterday I had stomach pains and I'm afraid of what that might mean.
I'm also starting to worry about my health. I pray that I don't inherit some of the diseases my family is known for.
The drive to CT is not usually horrible, but I am not looking forward to it later today. The traffic might be bad. I can not leave work early due to the miserable fool mentioned above.
I've been saying "I wanted to punch him/her in the face" a lot lately. I'm not sure where that came from.
I received a very weird and confusing present the other day. I don't know how to address it. I am not offended, just confused.
I need to remember not to post interactive posts around the holidays. It makes for a very lonely Toosdae.
I saw the trailer for the movie my father's last famous client was making while my dad was working on his house. It made me smile to know that while he was learning his lines, he was also talking to my dad.
I am sure this is not true for all people in Geneva, but so far, the ones I have communicated with are very, very rude and try to make me feel bad about the fact that they have to work.
Strap ons require 2 people. This is what is confusing.
Tuesday, December 22, 2009
1. What was your most awkward gift opening experience? Explain.
2. What color do you feel you look the best in?
3. Look to your left. What do you see?
1. The first year I worked at the publishing company in CT we did a Secret Santa gift swap. When I opened mine up, there was a bottle of shampoo, conditioner and mouse. I didn't know who gave it to me but I was mildly offended b/c I always have clean hair and thought they gave it to me b/c they felt otherwise. So I must have looked confused and crushed while smiling. Later I found out that the guys wife was a sales manager for a salon and the products were given to me because she knew I'd like upscale shampoo. That's what he said, anyway.
2. I have no idea what is really the color I look good in, but I like myself in red and green. Red because I get a lot of compliments and green because it makes my eyes look even more green and I like that.
3. To my left is a wall. But on my desk I see my Magic 8 Ball, an uneaten clementine and a candy cane hanging off of my inbox.
Monday, December 21, 2009
When I finally got up from my nap, I still felt...icky. Knowing that we were due for a whopper of a snow storm, I headed out to buy a few items I needed. The cold air felt good and I bought some fast food for dinner which seemed to make me feel better. I feel good about the fact that I was able to find cheap but nice gifts for the people in my office and can officially say that I am done-even though I said that last week too.
Yesterday I woke up to LOTS of snow. And it was still snowing. And it continued to snow well into the day. All in all, I think we got about a foot and a half or so of powdery white snow. I kept waiting to shovel because I thought it would end, but it just didn't so around 1 o'clock I ventured out and cleaned up. I'm happy to say that one of the couples in the building hired a plow and the cost to me will only be $7/snow. That's well worth it. I'm not sure I could have handled shoveling all of that. Just my spot alone was hard work.
After I shoveled I came inside and heated up some tea, had a piece of rum cake and relaxed. I then went outside to bring the garbage out because today is trash day. It was dark out and I didn't feel like changing so I walked outside in my pajama's and fuzzy white robe with my snow boots. Normally I'd be OK with this considering the weather, however I discovered that living across the street from me is a very hot man who was shoveling his driveway. And of course my first encounter with him was in my fuzzy white robe, ponytail and snow boots. Oh, and snow that came up to my knees. That was sexy.
Besides shoveling I took another nap and made some beef stew. It was a lazy, snowed in weekend and though I always feel guilty relaxing like this, it was a very nice and needed change from the last month. I think you know I've just been going and going since I decided to move and now that the party is over, I'm just really looking forward to taking my time with the rest of the place. There are many goals I'm setting for myself for 2010 and I'm taking the next couple of weeks to gather my thoughts and hopefully close out this long, horrible year on a positive note.
It's a short week people-enjoy it!
Did you get any or much snow where you live? What are your plans for the holiday?
Sunday, December 20, 2009
In my garde manger class in culinary school we made many, many small bites. Of them, this recipe was my most favorite. The rich blue cheese butter-slightly melted from the warm duck-is cut by the sweet, refreshing mandarin orange. It's truly a simple and delicious combination that your friends will devour. The hardest thing about this recipe is finding the duck. I found mine at Whole Foods.
3 Duck Breasts, skin scored
1/2 # Unsalted Butter, room temperature
1/2 C. Blue Cheese, room temperature
48 Mandarin Orange Slices
48 Crouton Rounds or crackers
1 C. Toasted Pistachio Nuts, chopped
Salt & White Pepper
1. In a large bowl, combine butter and blue cheese. Using an electric mixer, cream the two together. Season with salt and pepper to taste. Set aside.
2. Shell and toast pistachios. Allow to cool slightly before chopping them. Set aside.
3. Using a sharp knife, score the duck skin diagonally to make diamonds. Season both sides of the duck liberally with salt and white pepper. In a very hot pan, sear the duck skin side down until it's a deep golden brown color. The majority of cooking will be on this side to render out the fat. Once this happens, turn the duck over and cook for about 1-2 minutes more. Allow to rest 5 minutes prior to slicing.
4. Spread blue cheese butter on crackers. Top with thin slices of warm duck, then one mandarin orange and sprinkle with pistachios. This canape is best when the duck is still warm, however they are still delicious at room temperature.
*Blue Cheese butter can be made up to 3 days ahead. Simple cover and refrigerate until 45 minutes prior to use. Allow to become room temperature before spreading.
*Pistachios can be toasted up to 1 week in advance. Allow to cool completely before storing in an airtight container.
Saturday, December 19, 2009
It was my most successful party yet. Everyone who said they were coming came (with the exception of 2 husbands) and most of the food was gone. Everyone went back for 2nds and 3rds and the drinks I made were wildly popular. Here is how I set the party up:
The tree in the corner is the one I got for $1 at the Christmas Tree Shoppe. It's made of foam balls and is sprinkled with glitter. It's hard to tell in the photos but it's so pretty! I wanted the entire table to be white and silver, so I used only white platters and risers. When I ran out of white risers I used clear vases and filled the bigger one with silver Christmas balls. I then scattered the table with clear, silver and white stained glass pieces and lit tea lights for some added sparkle. Everyone was very impressed and loved it.
As I said, it was a very successful and fun party. There was lots of laughter and food and while my old friends and new friends did not mingle together very much, everyone had a great time. All of my hard work in the apartment did not go unnoticed and people really liked what I've done so far. It really feels like home now...and now, I'm off to CT for my father's holiday party. Pray that we really don't get a foot of snow tonight!
Friday, December 18, 2009
I planned on going shopping after cooking last night then going home to bake. The Mom did not come downstairs until 8:30 however and therefore I got home at 9pm. No shopping. Also, no heat. Incidentally, Boston.com had just posted a headline that last night was the coldest night so far and it was likely to be close to 0 degrees. I could see my breath inside the apartment. Also, my oven would not heat up properly and I spilled water in the flourless chocolate cake batter. It looks OK but I'm not sure how it will taste. I'll have to test it to see if it's OK just in case I have to bake another one quickly.
My chicken mixture for one appetizer doesn't taste like it normally does and my duck is still frozen. It just seems like the universe is trying to stop this party. I really hope it goes off without a hitch and that everyone loves the food.
So I am sorry I did not visit or post much yesterday. I just simply was in a bitchy mood and needed to keep to myself. I'll post some pictures of the setup later on if I get the chance. I'm taking a 1/2 day so I can prepare so hopefully I'll get some up.
Thursday, December 17, 2009
It's very cold out and windy today. I can't wear my long wool coat because it's too big and I look ridiculous in it. I'm over tired, had horrible dreams about people I love being dead and my back hurts.
Needless to say, I have to shake off this grumpiness before I can communicate.
Wednesday, December 16, 2009
Jamie used to check everything I did. Once I cleaned the kitchen but forgot to wipe the underneath of the faucet. When he saw it he said, "We all fall short in the eyes of the Lord." I hated that but years later when I have something perfect except for one thing, I whisper that to myself. I hate that too.
I made a chandelier out of Christmas balls. It needs more but I'm not sure I'll have time.
Next year I would like to decorate a tree with someone special. I haven't done that in...a really, really long time.
When you IM me and I don't know you very well, please try to keep up the conversation. I take your long ass pauses as you not being interested or interesting.
Yesterday was the campus holiday party at the President's house. It's pretty in there and I think it would have been fun but it was so hot I had to leave. My face was embarrassing me. I don't know why I don't use my medicine all of the time.
I'd like to preface this with the fact that I really like this person. She's a co-worker and becoming a friend. The other day she said mentioned that she'll be at my house early on Friday before the party. She said it again later too. I'm wondering how early and also why she would not ask me first if that was OK. I find it a little rude, actually but I don't want to hurt her feelings.
Yesterday I visited my new primary care physician so that I could get my inhaler script renewed. After she did that she asked me if I wanted to get a flu shot. Then she asked if I'd also like the H1N1 shot. I've never asked about it before. Doesn't it seem like it should have been a little harder than that? Anyway...I got both.
My boss wants to take me out to lunch to thank me for doing such a great job. This is flattering but also very scary. It's going to be very awkward.
I am nervous about a gift that was sent to me. My friend told me he just wants me to be happy and that he doesn't like how I have been treated in the past. And that it might be offensive but he did not mean it that way. What the heck could it be?! (Kurt if you read this-I'm nervous!!!)
I found myself humming and singing yesterday while I did the dishes. This makes me happy because it means I'm getting there. It seems like I am fighting with myself to let it go...like it is trying to, but when I find myself healing I grasp at a memory so that it doesn't happen.
I wish we were still friends. When I can write that sentence without tearing up, I know I'm there. I miss you.
The other day I was grocery shopping in my work clothes and my underwear were not being nice. It's not a very good feeling walking around knowing that people can tell b/c you are wearing dress pants.
It's frustrating when there is more than one itinerary for the same conference.
Tuesday, December 15, 2009
1. What was the most memorable Christmas or Hanukkah gift you ever received?
2. If you could only listen to one Christmas song for the rest of your life (only during the holiday season) what would it be?
3. Finish this sentence: "It's not Christmas/Hanukkah until..."
1. You know...I couldn't think of any one really memorable gift but after a while I remembered the year my then boyfriend gave me a radio for my car because I needed one. We were in high school and didn't have a lot of money, so he took his out of his car and wrapped it up. I thought that was really nice, especially because he really loved music. I did not install it into my car though.
2. Silent Night, as sung by Sarah McLachlan. My 2nd choice would be Oh Holy Night or God Rest Ye Merry Gentlemen.
3. It's not Christmas until we sit in our circle and take turns opening gifts...then cram ourselves into my Nana's house with lots of crazy Italians. :)
Monday, December 14, 2009
Paining the trim white in the dining room
Painting the trim in the living room (I did not get this done. Only the archway is finished.)
Painting the bathroom, hanging the pictures and shelf
Putting chairs together
Setting up the Christmas tree
Laundry (did not get it done)
Hanging pictures (did not get this done either)
I only stopped to eat and sleep this weekend. I did go to the store on Friday to return some things and to get plates and stuff for the party. Yesterday I also had to run out because I seem to have lost an entire box of Christmas items-including all of my lights. The only box they had at Target-literally, the only box-was those icicle lights that you put outside. I had to get them because the tree was up, waiting to be dressed. And with the party on Friday, I needed it done today. It didn't come out too bad-I tried to hide the white wires as best I could. I also decided not to put any of my sentimental ornaments on the tree this year. I'm not sure why, but I just did not feel like it. Instead, my tree is all red and silver. I find it funny that in this picture it looks like I photo shopped some balls in-those are just velvet covered balls and have no shine which is why they look so flat. I think.
I said velvet covered balls. :)
The bathroom is painted but I am not happy with it yet. The medicine cabinet is so ugly and gross. I want to change it but I feel like I shouldn't invest money in it. I have a mirror that I can put up and I think I'll try that-because the cabinet is really gross and I'm embarrassed to have people in there. Otherwise, I'm glad I painted it white instead of that tan fleshy color the walls have. It looks much better with the pink tiles. Which are another yuck, but what can I do about that?
I've also decided on a menu for the party. I have about 6-7 little bites in addition to 3 desserts, 2 special drinks and wine. I think it'll be a good time. 16 people are coming, which to me, is a smashing hit. Only a few people can not make it and only 1 person did not reply. Not bad, I'd say.
This has become a ramble. I am sorry. I haven't rested much. I'll come back later perhaps to tell you what food I am making. In the meantime, have a wonderful Monday!
Sunday, December 13, 2009
You like? I love...
Today I will be finishing the top trim and painting some of the trim in the living room. I'll also be putting up my tree-which will be in the dining room. Then, I'll rest. I hope.
Friday, December 11, 2009
It's cold outside today and I can't imagine why anyone would want to do this...but tradition is tradition!
PS. If you DO know where I work, please don't say the name of the place in comments...
I hate money.
After the holidays I expect that I'll be able to start saving again. That will be a nice feeling. It's been a looooooong time since I've been able to do that, so it'll make me feel good when I have a little pot built up again. I'm also looking forward to not having to spend money on things that I need but instead be able to use budgeted money to go out with friends.
In other news, I have amazing friends. To those of you who have emailed me, called me, facebook'd me...you're fantastic and I love you. Sometimes it's easy to forget that even though one person has moved on and forgotten me, you all are still here, loving me, caring about me and wanting to be in my life. So thank you for the subtle and not so subtle reminders that I am worthy of love.
To all of my Jewish friends and readers, Happy Hanukkah!
Thursday, December 10, 2009
I continue to get things done in the apartment. The bed skirt was ironed and put on the bed and the 2nd curtain rod was put up so the sheers are hanging too. I still haven't hung my jewelry, but I'll do that this weekend for sure.
The dining room is coming along. You haven't seen pictures yet because the place was a mess. I have all of my Christmas gifts piled high on the table and it was hard to take the picture. I still have to hang the wine racks, 4 pictures and paint the trim. I also need to figure out what curtains to put up. I bought a pair that I though would look great, but the packaging was wrong and they are too short. So it's back to the drawing board. I think I'm going to switch the rugs around too-I currently have a flowered one in the living room (which used to be in my bedroom) and the geometric one that used to be in my living room is in my bedroom. I'm going to put the geometric one back in the living room for color and take the flowered one and put it in the dining room. I won't have a rug in the bedroom-it's too small anyway.
I also hung a candle holder and 3 pictures in the kitchen and put the light cover back on the fan. I'm not sure why, but the painters took the covers off of all the lights in the apartment and neglected to put them back on. Weird, but that's fixed now. So overall, the place is starting to feel like home. You'll have pictures soon, I promise. This weekend will be my very last push for a while (funds have run out) so it'll surely be done by Sunday.
Did any of you watch Top Chef? I'm sad it's over and also sad that the guy I wanted to win did not win. I will not elaborate just in case you haven't watched it yet, but I'm sad he lost. He did not even come in 2nd. Which is lame. I'm sure they did that for dramatic effect, but still, it's lame. The guy who won was my 2nd choice, but I don't think he should have been the winner. I hate that my 2 favorite "reality" shows are over: Amazing Race and Top Chef...I guess I'll have to start reading again. :)
Wednesday, December 09, 2009
It's weird when people constantly rub their bellies. In public.
Memories of where I have been inspire me about where I am going.
Memories don't fade fast enough.
Those of you who are my facebook friends already know this, but my boss announced yesterday that he will not renew his contract in June. This means a new Dean will step in. I am worried about my job, though I am told I need not be. Still, there's a chance, and I hate that.
Waffle fries pretty much rock. Especially crunchy ones washed down with ice cold beer and lots of laughter.
My apartment is freezing. This is better than my old apartment which was hellishly hot, but at the same time-I'm cold! I invested in a nice fuzzy robe and I snuggle under blankets while reading or watching TV. I could raise the heat, but I'm trying to tough it out as I know I'll have to do that later in the month.
All of my Christmas shopping is officially done. It's a lot easier this year since I have less presents to buy.
I dislike how easily people are replaced or forgotten.
I found a nice dress for my father's holiday party (which I am bringing a friend to!) for $30 and a pair of sexy silver shoes for $5. The little black clutch I am bringing was a gift from my mother so it's a very cheap night.
IKEA's cinnamon buns are lethal. They're so good I could bathe in them. Or smear them all over a sexy man and lick it off.
Did I type that out loud?
Tuesday, December 08, 2009
The kitchen is now done. As I was painting I actually said, "Green paint, I love you.". Yes, it's weird, but I only had to do one coat and it went on like a dream compared to that stinky red! The entire thing only took about an hour and a half and though the room is still torn apart, the walls are done!! That ugly flesh color (that's still all over the rest of the apartment) needed to go. The kitchen is so cute now! I can't wait to put up my pictures and start cooking... I also managed to procure a bed frame! I found on in a local used furniture store in my old neighborhood for $24. I was a little worried to be honest that it would not be the right size when I got it home (they have a strict no return policy) but it was right and I will sleep on a raised bed for the first time in a while. My bedroom is now almost done. I have to put up the 2nd curtain rod so I can hang my sheers and put the bed skirt back on (now that I have space under the bed!) and hang some pictures on the opposite wall...oh, and hang my jewelry. But here is what it looks like at this very minute.
Monday, December 07, 2009
Sunday, December 06, 2009
My holiday housewarming party is in a couple of weeks and I'm really trying to get everything done. That means painting, organizing, decorating and planning. The fun party today so far was making the vodka for one of the cocktails being served at the party-a ginger lemon martini. The main ingredient, of course, will be this ginger-lemon vodka. It will steep for 2 weeks and then I will strain it. It sits on my kitchen counter:
I had a busy day yesterday and when I got home in the evening I was just not up to priming the walls in the dining room. I really should have because I'd be in better shape today, but I think it'll all work out if I'm diligent. Here is the before:
And here is the after. JUST KIDDING! This is the "during". The primer is tinted pink because I am painting the walls red. This will help ensure I won't have to paint 4 coats...hopefully.
I really wish that I could paint the trim white today too, but I think that will have to wait until tomorrow night after work. I don't want to mess up the paint job by taping, which I have to do for sure since it's red.
Next week I'll be painting the kitchen. Luckily that trim is already painted white, so it'll be an easier job. I might also go ahead and paint the bathroom at that time too. I decided to just paint it a clean white instead of gray. I already have a huge thing of white paint left by the painters and with the mauve tile it might just be better to have it white. I don't mind the sterile feeling in a bathroom.
So, I have a lot of work to do. Later today I am driving to IKEA to hopefully purchase the chairs I need for the dining room....at least 4 of them. We'll see. I've gotta go! Lots to do, lots to do!
Friday, December 04, 2009
Thursday, December 03, 2009
Wednesday, December 02, 2009
I am starting over. Last night before bed I cleared out my Google Reader. Today I am going to start being a better blog friend and I'll try to click over to comment more often. I'll also start responding to comments here again. I can't do it from work though, so it'll be at night, but it is a start.
It's funny to watch Bella inspect the heaters when they come on with a loud clank.
I finally found a free bed frame and will be picking it up tomorrow! Finally...my bed will not sit on the ground and I can use the underneath for storage!! And it's free. :)
I also found a dining room table and 4 chairs for $30. I have to rent a truck b/c I don't know anyone with a truck or SUV (who is free on Friday) but it's still significantly cheaper than buying one. I'll purchase 2 chairs for a set of 6 and paint it so it all flows together. SO excited!!!
There's a cute boy who works in my general area and when he goes to get water or coffee I get to smile at his cute little face. I think he's taken though, but it's fun to look.
I have a window in my shower-which I detest. It's frosted but I often worry that people can see in. I have a little curtain up, but it's not enough. Luckily my neighbor was showering in his bathroom last night and I got to see how the frost works...I couldn't see feature but I could see flesh colored skin and his outline. Definitely time to get blackout curtains for that sucker!
It's nice to have friends who email you to say they miss you and they want to get together soon. I've never really had that. People who miss me and actually tell me. It's nice.
I know this is weird, but I love the way my Bella smells. She's getting so big too. I love her.
Frank (my neighbor who likes to get freaky with his wife while I'm trying to sleep) rolled down his car window yesterday morning to say hello and to see how I was doing. It is nice to have neighbors who talk to you...but at the same time, I'm kind of antisocial and when I see them I want to sometimes turn around.
Only 16 more days until my party. I. Am. So. Excited!!! What's neat to me is that I have friends from all over coming-different stages in my MA life all coming together. I know I've said this before, but I'm so very happy I moved to Boston! I've never had so many friends and such an active social life.
I stole a pickle yesterday and it was good.
I once wrote a speech about pickles.
Tuesday, December 01, 2009
Happy Toosdae everyone! Did you survive your first day back to work yesterday? It's hard to go back after a long weekend, no? I'm still in the "honeymoon stage" of my job, so I didn't mind so much, but it was still hard to wake up early! Take a break (for goodness sake!) from your day today and answer some Toosdae questions...
1. I love the smell of skunks, home improvement stores and dry erase markers. What weird smells do you like that "normal" people don't?
2. What do you put in your deviled eggs?
3. When was the last time something embarrassing happened to you? Care to share what it was?
1. See above...skunks, home improvement stores and dry erase markers...
2. I don't make them often mainly because not many people I know eat enough of them to make it worth it, but I put mayo, a touch of mustard, garlic powder, salt and pepper. I don't do this but I love onions, horseradish or pickles in it too. (Now I want a deviled egg!)
3. Last night in the parking lot of Home Depot. My belly didn't feel too good and it was making weird noises, just as a hot guy walked past me to get into his car. I know he heard it because he looked over and chuckled. Needless to say, I sped away very quickly.
Monday, November 30, 2009
I decided on a paint color for the dining room:
I forget what it's called, but I bought it at Home Depot. They offer 3 kinds of paint there-Behr, the "new" Behr and Glidden. I've always used the Behr but thought I would see if Glidden was less expensive (it is) so I picked out colors from both. At the paint counter (where I waited for about 10 minutes without anyone there-lots of HD employees walked by ignoring the fact that I was waiting.) I asked the guy (who finally showed up after I stopped someone to ask for help) if Glidden was OK paint. He asked what I was using it for and I told him my dining room. He shrugged and said it was OK but Behr has a better reputation. He said it in kind of a snotty tone so I was sort of put off by what he said. I asked if the paint would peel off the walls or something or was it good enough. I don't even remember what he said because he made it seem like I was the stupidest person alive for asking questions. Knowing that I've used WalMart paint before and had good results I went with the Glidden. He wasn't happy about that. Maybe he would have gotten a bonus if I bought Behr? Who knows...but his customer service was horrible.
Before he started mixing the paint he told me to go "over there" to get brushes and rollers. I told him I already had them, but thank you...he said, "You can't possibly have everything."
Excuse me? Why not? Because I asked if a certain paint was OK? I don't understand why you think I "can't possibly" have everything I need minus the paint.
I let it go. Mainly because while he was talking he allowed my paint to overflow. He must have punched in too many numbers or something because the can looked like a 5th grade science project (volcano). I took a small bit of pleasure watching him try to move that can without spilling the mess all over.
I then asked his advice (I don't know why I bothered) about whether I should paint the white trim first or the red walls first. He looked at me (again) like I was the stupidest person alive and said, "I'd rather have you paint the red wall first. You'll mess up the trim if you do that first."
This is when I wanted to drop an "F' bomb on him, but I did not. I was tired and at this point, grumpy and my tummy was starting to hurt so I just took my paint and primer and went on my way. It's the last time I'll shop at that Home Depot. Which is a shame, because it's on my way home and also, I have more paint to buy.
Overall, it was a very successful Friday.
Saturday my Mom, Dad and niece went out for lunch and then-shopping! I managed to find my Christmas cards and this years wrapping paper but did not succeed in getting anything I really wanted-decorations for my party. But at least I'm all set for cards. Later that night I met a friend for dinner before heading home. I like to leave late at night during the holiday season b/c less people travel. It was a good idea, because I did not hit any traffic.
Yesterday I unpacked the rest of my boxes (with the exception of the ones in my office-those will stay packed until I get a desk.). I broke them all down and put them outside for trash today. I also put lots of things in their place including all of my formal china. That has not been out of boxes in the 2 years I've been in MA, so I'm excited I have a place to put it now. Overall, my entire apartment is pretty much put together now! I still don't have any art up yet mainly because I'm going to be painting the kitchen (green) and the dining room (red) and the trim (white) and I don't know which pictures will go where. I also have a weird wall set up and most of my things don't work here. Which means I'll be looking for some new art for my walls sometime in the near future.
I had quite a productive day yesterday, wouldn't you say? It feels good to walk around without boxes everywhere. I'm excited for the next stage-decorating and then entertaining. I do really love this apartment-even with its quirks (like no outlets or light switches). So far, it was a good decision. I do miss the city, but the parking space makes that better. :) And it's always just a short ride away...
Friday, November 27, 2009
Yesterday was really great. My mom and I prepped the meal-minus the turkey-the night before and I made my gravy base, the pies and the stuffing that night too. So on Thanksgiving day, all I had to do it pop the turkey in the oven and mash the various foods we had cooking. It was very relaxing!
This year I tried a new technique I've read about. I soaked a cheesecloth in melted butter and then draped it over the turkey the entire time it was roasting. Every hour I basted it through the buttery cloth. The result was fantastic. The coloring on the turkey was a deep caramel and it was even and crispy but not too crispy. And the meat-oh my goodness-SO MOIST. I was secretly nervous that it wouldn't work...I mean, it was the turkey. But I watched it for the first couple of hours and once I saw it browning under the cloth I felt better.
I also switched some things-I added sausage and apples to the stuffing. This may not sound like a big deal, but my mom makes stuffing a certain way b/c her mom did etc., etc. I was worried they would hate it because in my family the stuffing is the favorite food item-including the turkey and pie. Everyone loved it and I think everyone had 2nds. I also did not make the sweet potatoes with marshmallows on top. Instead I made a brown sugar streusel topping. It was delightful. I added MUCH less orange juice than usual to the actual potatoes too, so the contrast was really good and the little crunch of buttery brown sugar was so good.
The only thing I was not happy with was my pecan pie. While the flavor was really good and the crust fantastic, the pie plate was a bit too big, so the filling did not fill the entire shell. It is not a big deal, but to me, it was.
After dinner was all watched the parade-which my father recorded because we were cooking and my sisters were sleeping. It was fun, but after a while it was getting old. To get over our boredom we played a very inventive board game that my sister and niece made up and then continued what seems to be a tradition of playing charades. It's also so fun to play that with my family. They're a bunch of nut jobs!!
So my holiday was a success! How about yours?
Thursday, November 26, 2009
Wednesday, November 25, 2009
The Dean is letting us leave at noon today! Which is good because I am driving down to CT for a birthday dinner and I also have to bake.
The Dean was told that the team in the office now is the smoothest team they've ever seen in that office. Which is nice to hear. Because, you know, I'm new.
Today I got an email from a meeting coordinator who wants me to tell her when The Dean is NOT available for a call. From January to May. Seriously? He's a very busy man. That list will take me a day to compile! I told her she is crazy. I'm waiting for her reply.
January to May. Really...
Hedwig is a great show.
Being friends in elementary school and junior high does not mean we've been friends for 24 years.
I do not respond well to people who try to guilt me into things. Especially when it comes to friendship.
My dad asked for a Harley Davidson Hog for his birthday. So I bought him one...
The university is swarming with the hog flu. They've modified the sick leave policy so that people don't come to work and lots of kids are in quarantine. Yesterday I thought I had a fever and for the first time I worried about having the flu. I've been in contact with a lot of students over the last couple of weeks...
I didn't have a fever.
Living in the moment is helping. But I'll miss having "our" holiday time.
Frank and Marie still love each other. I know this, because I could hear them getting busy on Friday night through the wall. Incidentally, they are probably in their late 60's or early 70's. And he does NOT sound sexy.
Tuesday, November 24, 2009
I'm trying my best to live in the moment. For the most part it works and I feel good but every now and then memories creep back in and I realize that things aren't the way they used to be. I'm trying to get myself out of it faster though. We'll see. I used to spend time with him around Thanksgiving and also Christmas, so I'm sure that this season will be a little sad but I have a ton to be thankful for and I am certain that I will snap out of it.
Sunday I got most of my things unpacked. I only have about 10 boxes left to unpack and while not everything is put away where I want them to stay forever, things are coming along. I put the table in the kitchen together and placed all of my kitchen items away. I am AMAZED at how much room I have here! The cabinets are gigantic and with the built in china cabinet and large closet, I'm just swimming in extra room. It's fantastic. I really love this apartment. I do need to do a few things to make it nicer though. For instance, I am definitely painting the bathroom. The tiles are pink which is hideous, but what makes it worse is the color of the walls. Every wall is painted tan in here and I'm grateful that it's not white, but in the bathroom it just looks gross. So I am painting it a gray color, painting the ugly old medicine cabinet black (with the shiny paint I used for my furniture) and I added a silver towel rack. I'm also pretty sure that I am going to paint the wood trim. The painters kind of messed it up in places and while it probably was nice at one time, it just isn't perfect and it drives me nuts. Painting it white will make the entire apartment uniform (1/2 is painted white already) and also make it look more fresh. The kitchen will be painted (maybe a bright blue? green again?) and the dining room will also be painted. Depending on how the trim looks with the color of the walls, I'll keep the living room tan. My bedroom is too small to really worry about painting and the office is even smaller so those will remain tan as well.
So-I have a lot of work to do before my holiday housewarming party on the 18th. 8 of my new friends from the university are coming along with a bunch of my friends I've had here for a while. I'm excited-it's been so long since I've been a hostess. Any suggestions about what drinks I should serve? Wine for sure but I want a couple of drinks too. What would you want at a holiday party?
Sunday, November 22, 2009
Five years ago today I took my life back. Five years ago today, I left the house that I owned with nothing but the clothes on my back and I vowed not to go back until he was gone. I said "no" to being put down on a daily basis, to being blackmailed, told not to laugh when things were funny, being told I was fat and ugly and not worthy of love and most of all, I said no to being beat up. I did not know whether or not he would chase me or kill me and I lived in fear for quite a while after he was gone. But even that fear was less than what I felt everyday he was in my life.
This year was one of the hardest years of my life. My confidence was shot, I was humbled and humiliated. There were times when I felt like I had nothing to get me through the day. But I was safe and I was free. And even five years later, it feels good to be able to say that.
I can't get those years back. But I can thank God that I got through it, that I am strong enough to have taken control and that I had good people who gave me shelter when I needed to hide.
As I look around my new apartment, tired from a night out with new friends, I am so very grateful for the woman asked me if I felt safe at home. It seemed so random-especially because that was the day I decided I was not going to go back home. I'm not certain that I would have had enough courage to really go through with it had she not told me that I need to get away from him. I like to think I would have-but really, I'm not sure.
My life is so enriched now with family and friends who love me, a craft that keeps me centered and a job that I think I'm really going to love. Today is the 5th Anniversary of Me and today, more than any day, I am grateful to be alive.
Friday, November 20, 2009
In any case, this one in particular my boss's EA (I'm his AA) contacted the faculty and asked them to RSVP to him with any dietary restrictions they might have. As he got the RSVP's he forwarded me the emails so I knew who was coming and what they could or could not eat. One of the girls in the office offered to make table tents with each of the professors names and so I asked the EA to give me a final list of those coming, which he did.
The day of the lunch people filed in as I matched the special lunches with the name tents. One professor had lunch but no name tent and one had a name tent but no lunch. This is a big deal b/c we order from off campus and well, it makes us look disorganized. I was worried my boss would freak out after lunch because he offered his lunch to the one person who was without.
While the lunch was going on, the EA and I tried to figure out what happened. At first we thought that the lady w/o the table tent did not RSVP but we knew that wasn't the case b/c she had her special lunch. Basically what happened is that she called him instead of emailed him which is why he did not have a "paper" trail. When he sent the list, she was not on it and because I was only looking at the number of people on the list, I did not catch it. We were both to blame. Surprisingly, my boss was not at all phased. In fact-and here's where the title comes in-he came over to me and said, "You seem to really have picked up the job quickly. Usually when people first start there's a rough period, but you seem to have it down pat."
Wow. Coming from him-someone who is notoriously harsh (though I have not seen it) this is huge. And also, he said it in front of the whole office, which was also nice. Here I was thinking he was going to freak out about lunch and he goes and gives me a huge compliment. The next day, he emailed me and told me again that I was doing a great job and he thanked me for joining them.
That made me smile.
In other good news, I had my doctor's appointment tonight. I was a little nervous about it because I didn't want to open up and feel bad for the rest of the weekend-especially not this weekend. But he is very easy to talk to and he asked me lots of questions which helped me tell my story. Sometimes it's hard to know where to start, but he prompted me and we got on with the session. The good news is that though I did cry, I feel good. He confirmed a few things I was having trouble with and the best news of all is that he said I can be fixed easily. (He didn't use those words.) He acknowledged that growing up the way I did probably has something to do with why I gravitate toward men with broken wings and why I stay in relationships that are not fulfilling. He then gave me some suggestions about ways to cope with the feelings I have and how to redirect the memories that make me sad. I have another appointment with him after Thanksgiving. It feels good to attack the feelings/problems head on. Somehow even though I still feel badly, I feel like I'm actively trying to kick sadness in the ass. Ya know?
I have a big exciting day tomorrow. First, I get my front tooth fixed. It's been chipped since elementary school (but filled in so you couldn't tell) and it slowly started wearing away this year. I did not have dental insurance so I couldn't get it fixed, but now I can and I'm super excited b/c I'm self conscious about it now. After that, I'll head over to Trader Joe's to pick up some wine (a friend suggested a couple of good ones for the party and I want to try them before I buy them) and then to my massage. Last, I'll meet my work friends for dinner and go to the show.
It'll be a great day. And Sunday, the actual Anniversary of Me (the shrink thought that was funny-in a good way) will be spent getting my home together and relaxing.
And now, I am going to relax in my new fuzzy robe with a nice cuppa tea. Love to you all!