Friday, August 15, 2008

Reflections

Why is it you always look better in the mirrors at home than you do in the mirrors at work? It happens all the time-as I'm getting ready in the morning I think, "I look pretty today" or something to that effect-and then I'll go to the bathroom later in the morning and as I walk past the mirrors I realize that I actually look like ass.

I know that some of this has to do with insecurities-unconsciously comparing myself to others around me. But it really does seem like I have trick mirrors, because when I get home, I look in the mirror again and I look ok.

Does this happen to anyone else?

Also, I wish I looked good in a ponytail. I just don't. I tell myself all of the time I won't put my hair up, but then my thick hair heats my neck up and then my face starts getting hot and I just have to grab a goopie (If you don't know, that's what I call a hair elastic) and put the mange up.

Every night I make a promise to myself that I will blow dry and curl my hair. Every morning I bargain with myself for more time in bed...which means I sometimes have to sacrifice the drying and the curling...which again, leads to a ponytail. It's a vicious cycle.

Sometimes I even tell myself I won't wear jeans as much as I do. I think most people feel good when they are a little bit more dressed up-I know I do. But deep down, I'm a jeans and sweatshirt kind of girl. And even if I do dress up, when I get to work, that mirror just laughs at what I'm wearing and mocks me as I pass.

I'm starting to get lines. My mirror doesn't hide those. And when I go through my bouts of sleepless nights, like I've been having lately, makeup can't hide the dark circles. Instead of laugh lines I have a line on my forehead from the face I make when I concentrate. I laugh a lot.

Laugh lines, I could handle.

16 comments:

WillThink4Wine said...

You're still so young, Mags! Don't obsess so much about your looks. I don't worry about lines or hair or clothes. My criteria has changed immensely in the last 30 years... My philosophy now is if it hurts or leaves a mark, I don't wear it! It makes cleaning out my closet and dresser much easier! ♥

Danielle A. said...

It's also flourescent lighting. Flourescent lighting in "public" bathrooms makes everyone look terrible.

And pshaw - you don't look bad with a ponytail. :)

Melisa said...

I'm TOTALLY with Danielle, and I know it for a fact. You need to hire some Hollywood lighting specialist to follow you around. You'll feel much better. LOL

Callie Ann said...

from all the pics I have seen of you, your beautifulllllll. So quit belly aching and pull your hair up it's hot out.

Your self esteem is low for some reason, probably due to the lack of sleep. Snap out of it Chicky Babe. Your doing fine.

Lines in your face. Just means your educated and living life. It's a natural process. Just keep using your sun block. No more sunburns that will add wrinkles... Use your creams.

Your doing good. Really you are. I am not giving you and smoke screen. Your a looker. So knock it off!

Ivanhoe said...

I'm with Danielle on the fluorescent lights, too.
I do not really obsess about how I look (except when I go to some big, dress up event). And I noticed few new laugh/frown lines in my face recently. I just take it that it comes with the age. I still feel like I'm in my late twenties, not 32.

Clancy in Idaho said...

Avoid those lying work mirrors. Run. Just say no.

Since I haven't EVER actually seen you in person I can't say this with absolute authority, but I'm pretty sure that ponytails along with everything else look adorable on you because, let's face it, you're adorable!!! :)

Sandee (Comedy +) said...

Wait till your 50 before you think about these things. You are young so enjoy the youth. I noticed a change when I turned 50. I finally just quit worrying about it. It is what it is. I just go with it. Have a great day and weekend Mags. :)

katherine. said...

better lighting at home?

I want to know why I don't look in pictures the way I do in my mind!

Linda said...

Do I have to send Erik over here to tell you how pretty you are again, will that help? Heehee ...

I kind of have to agree with you, though, about the whole mirror thing. There is one time each year when I dress up for an event and that's my company's annual employee party at the end of January. When I'm home getting ready I usually think to myself "I look pretty good" and go to said party thinking I look good only to see pictures later on and thinking "Oh God, I looked awful!"

As for work, yay for uniforms as I don't have to worry about what to wear and no one at work looks good at them so we're all on an even playing field!

Stick to what you're comfortable in and just remember that there are a lot of people out there who think you look great and no matter what you wear or what you do with your hair, that beautiful smile you have is the main thing we see!

Now, buck up before I send Erik back here ... and I'll do it, too!

Rocketstar said...

It could be the different light. Ponytails are sexy, I don't beleive you, post a pic ;o)

Rocketstar said...

It could be the different light. Ponytails are sexy, I don't beleive you, post a pic ;o)

GoteeMan said...

Could be frame of mind, but most likely either the angle of the mirror, the type of mirror glass and design, or the lighting...

the old addage is "beauty is in the eye of the beholder..." so maybe it's frame of mind after all...

J/

Bond said...

OK, so everyone and their sister hit the nail on the head fluorescent lights

Stop beating yourself up ...You turn heads...you just don't notice

Mo said...

put duct tape over the fluorescent bulbs at work and light a candle in the bathroom - you'll be gorgeous!

Seriously, honey - you ARE gorgeous!!!
Don't make me come there and hug you.
Cuz you know I will.

Palm Springs Savant said...

Oh I do understand. This past week I was at a company conference and had to present a few times on stage. When I saw myself on the video screens I was horrified and thought "Is that how ireally look???"

silverneurotic said...

I wish I dressed up more-but with my job it's just not possible. If I dressed up it would just get ruined within about 15 minutes.