What I feel, mostly, is disbelief. 30 always seemed old to me. But I'm not old. I don't feel old. I don't look old, and I don't act old. I don't believe I am turning 30.
Where did the time go? How much time was wasted on silly wishes and unrealistic dreams? How much time have I spent wishing I could be "that" girl instead of going out and becoming who I wanted to be?
The best news, to me, is that I've learned a lot. I'm not one of those girls who wasted time and sulked about it. I'm not one of those girls who sits back and cries because my marriage didn't work, because I don't have children yet or that I pushed the only person who truly loved me with all of his heart away because I wanted to re-invent myself.
Instead of bashing my 30 year old turning point, I am celebrating it. I will not cry like many other have in the past. I will not wallow in self pity and self doubt.
Over the next week, I plan to share some of the things I have learned about myself, the world, and others. As of this moment, I do not have a pre-written list or even any specific ideas.
I'll post them as they come to me. Hopefully they'll be profound. ;)
1. Laughter truly is one of the greatest things in the world. It can transport you from misery to bliss in moments, remind you of people you've lost, people you've touched and people you secretly admire. Laughter can bond people together or tear them apart (for lack of laughter). Being able to truly laugh at yourself means that you are okay with who you are.
2. "Going Left" will almost always bring you fun times and spontaneously wonderful road trips. Exploration is one of the keys to staying young. Sitting in a car with the windows down and the music playing is a favorite simple pleasure of mine, and remembering the days when my friends and I explored always makes me smile.
3. Monkeys throw poop. You should beware when walking by them. See #1 for anecdotete if said poop should hit you.
4. Having the most beautiful body does not mean you are the happiest, and vise versa.
5. That loving someone unconditionally does not mean that you have to put yourself in danger. Accepting someone for who they are only means something if they accept you for who you are back. And anyone who wants you to be someone you are not, never had good intentions.6. Giving up does not mean failure-and even failure doesn't mean failure if you look at it in the right way.