Lying in the sand.
Stepping stones and broken bones
A cut upon my hand.
I have no idea what that means. I just sat down at my computer, and literally that's what came out. Weird.
Could be the lack of sleep. Or the Tylenol PM I just took.
All day today, I thought it was 2007. When I was researching things for my boss that were date sensitive, I kept getting confused by the dates. Talk about time flying.
And speaking of yawning...my shrink redeemed himself a bit this week. Though his eyes rolled the sleepy-time roll, he did it while HE was talking. It just must be what he does. Also, I sat down and said, "I don't feel like talking today" but sure enough, he got me talking. AND at the end he said, "I'm here to make your life easier, so I won't be collecting a co-pay for our visits until you're in a better financial place.
Gotta love a nice guy. He could easily collect my $15 every 2 weeks, but he chose not to. I'm impressed and I've never been in a situation before where a professional doctor waves an ongoing fee. To make my life better.
I feel like I want to write. Write a really good post like the days of old-the ones where people proclaimed me a writer and said that my words touched them, or inspired them. That's a good sign, right? That the want is there...
Lastnight after 3 hours of laying in bed awake but dead tired, I got up to get a glass of wine. It was too late to take Tylenol PM but sleep just wasn't coming. I walked into my kitchen, poured a half of a glass and spilled it all over the counter. After cleaning it up, I picked up the bottle and spilled the rest.
I was so angry and tired I left it there, on the counter, cork on the floor, ugly weird bottle in the garbage, wishing it would have smashed when I put it it in the trash.
Hope is on the horizon. I can't feel it. It's welling up, getting ready to sing the Hallelujah Chorus.
We used to sing, as a tradition, the Hallelujah Chorus in high school. Until my chorus teacher retired and the new one came in. I hated her, but loved that she eliminated the MOST boring alto song in the world.
Also, all of these years in my head I sing,
"The Lord God OMNIIIII po-tent reigneth."
Because that's the way the alto part was sung. I never put 2 and 2 together that it was omnipotent. Weird. I guess that's what happens when you learn a song by sound and not music....
Waiting for the door to crack
a little bit wider now.
My foots asleep from putting it in
I'm searching for somehow.