I hate it when I'm wrong about someone. I used to think I had a good sense of who was true blue and who was "faking it". I used to think I had good judgment.
No more. I've given up thinking I can discern who's good and who's bad; who will truly be someone I can lean on and who will simply let me fall.
How did I get so blind? Why am I so willing to just trust people? Am I so naive that I can't see the forest for the trees? I don't think so, but how else can it be explained?
What sucks the most, is I wanted to prove everyone wrong with this one. I wanted to be the one who said, "It's not like that" or "I'm special".
But it seems as though it is "like that", and that I am nothing special to this person-and that sucks more than a hungry leech on a Mesopotamian.
The real trouble with this is that I don't want to stop being a trusting person, who tries to see the good in people. So how do I get to that place again where I can stay away from people who are not "real" and still give my heart to those who are?